First of all I want to gain some of your credibility. I have been self-supported and self-employed for the past 8 years, working in several different areas of the art field.
My current situation.
This is a rather complex situation I encounter myself in this moment and I want to wrap my head around it. What better way than writing it down?.
Back in 2005 I was studying Fine Arts in Venezuela, doing what I love, painting and sculpting (I hated sculpting back then), after a few years I had to go a different school where I finished my Fine Arts career path (well you just stop going to school, your career never ends… ever).
After that I took a year off to practice my English, while playing non-stop World of Warcraft, If you value your life, stay away from that game.
Then I enrolled into Illustration school, the only illustration major in my country. The thing is, Venezuela is way too far behind to the rest of the world in anything related to illustration or 3D, so my courses were weird, they were a mix of illustration and graphic design. (I think in the US there are some courses that teach Illustration Design) It was good, I am now very proficient in graphic design and know more than just the basics for Illustration.
I graduated with honors (who cares?) and after going out in the field in Venezuela, I quickly realized that there was no illustration field, I got almost zero jobs, no entry level jobs, nothing and I had to resort to learning more and more graphic design and caricaturing if I wanted to survive, so I spent a few years doing that.
But the situation in Venezuela got worse, the economy is destroyed, there’s no food, no art utensils, not even canvases to paint on, and the day to day became about stuff that is more basic but more important than making marks on a piece of paper.
So now it’s been a few years from that, I live abroad now and I've had a tough time getting used to a new culture and worst of all, I am in a really, really bad shape as an Illustrator.
I have to figure out a way to fix this and get myself on the right track again. I have to follow my dreams, otherwise I am already dead in advance.